I had an awesome day. I don't know if it was because of the fact that it was the last day of school, but I'd rather not take it as that. Almost the whole class looked like they were on drugs or something because they seemed high, especially the boys. Then again it's the male species I'm talking about so let's all be gracious enough and act like we understand. Plus, the girls won over the battle of the sexes during Social Studies. Reminds me of the time in primary school where "Girls rule, boys drool" was the 'in' thing. I even had a MYUK bag that I brought to school in upper primary that said something like that. Kental to the maximum!


Anyway I randomly searched Roguesandriots on Google and found a few blogs of the same name as mine. And to think I fucking thought my username was original!!!!!(x300) There's a roguesandriots on Tumblr as well as Blogspot. Can you believe it?! Okay yes you can. I am enraged!!!!! Okay I'm not. I will put aside roguesandriots.lj and roguesandriots.onsugar because those two are mine, although I haven't officially publicised the second one. Damn it I suddenly do not like my username anymore. :'( Okay fake. But seriously la. I took a few days just thinking of a perfect url for myself.. one I knew I would be able to stick with. I thought of lame and childish and stupid names but then decided on roguesandriots after so much contemplating. I took so much time to think of this only to find, more than a year later, the same username being used by other people on other domains. Life sucks.

Don't friend you.

I get really frustrated when others associate themselves with what you I am currently feeling or experiencing. Some days when I'm down in the dumps, I just want the rest of the world to understand that. Nothing but understand so that they can at least give me a fucking break. I go, "I'm tired." I can be mentally, physically or spiritually tired for all you know. How will you ever know if you don't listen? I totally hate it when the reply given is, "You think you're the only one? Everyone is tired too." Or something along that line. That just sucks. You just need to grasp the fact that for once I'm actually talking about myself and not anyone else. 

Everyone says the world doesn't revolve around your own person. Everyone knows that, duh. But I'm only human. I've got emotions, and I'm not something with a hard shell protecting me from the outside world. Compare me with a durian, and you'll realise that we're almost the same. Hard on the outside, soft inside.

I'm happy almost all the time, but like I said, I'm no robot. I feel like crap some days because I'm normal. You are, too, so I reckon you know exactly what I am trying to imply right now. So when I'm having a really bad day and just feel like whining and bitching, shut the fuck up and listen. You don't need to tell me one whole story about what you've experienced and that I'm not half as unlucky as you. Because if I were to be having a day that's equivalent to rubbish, I wouldn't have the heart to care less about your stupid experiences because I'm too much of a crybaby and just want to get my problem over and done with first before dealing with your dumb-and-not-as-serious-as-you-try-to-make-it-sound bullshit.

And so after what I've just said, I will give you a hypothetical example..

Person A is 17 and her beloved grandfather had just passed away. He means the world to her and she's having a hard time getting over the fact that he'll never be coming back. Person A then decides to tell her friend, Person B, just so that her friend will cheer her up. Well at least that was what she thought initially.

A: My grandpa just died. I don't know what to do.. I'm going to miss him :(
B: I know how you feel. My grandparents died when I was little. Hey, I miss them too.

In this hypothetical example, you can see that Person A has a very special bond with her grandfather and is very attached to him. Person A is a teenager and is old enough to actually feel the impact of losing a loved one, unlike Person B. So when Person B said that she knew how her friend felt, she doesn't really because when Person B's grandparents passed away, she was too young to realise what was really happening around her. Instead of trying to make her friend feel better, she indirectly implies for her friend to get over the loss because she feels that Person A shouldn't mourn over such a thing as she is not the only one experiencing such a thing.

Well, you know what I think? Shut the eff up. When others are dealing with such a thing, the least you can do is to make the person feel better. I know I sound selfish, but that's the way it goes. When you're dealing with bullshit you don't expect the people around you to be telling you THEIR bullshit too, especially if their problem isn't even serious in the first place. That's just wrong and self-centered. So far I haven't gone through enough to constantly be down, down, down~ 

But hey, I'm just speaking from what I've experienced. Most of the time everyone around are just far from being selfless. Enough said.

I'll write down the things happening in my life in point form for his post. Just because I can.

• We went to Pandan Examination Centre or something to collect all the D&T artefacts done by Crestians after school today.
• I was told to not get into trouble with the school during this period but I did. Fail.
• I got someone mad at me and now she won't talk to me for days to come. Reason: I got out of the bathroom late. Maybe if I steal your pen you wouldn't be talking to me for weeks. (:
• My teacher told me to stop smiling for no apparent reason. I'm not weird, I just have no control over my cheeks. Kidding ._.
• I'm pretty lame half the time I'm awake.
• I should focus on my school work because the pig disease I got from the person in front of Dina in class will not get me anywhere.
• Life sucks. But it's all I've got. So I should stop whining and start appreciating. B/c I'm living better than half the world's population.
• The weather's been pretty strange lately. 
• I need to do my part in saving the environment. I don't care if you think I sound kental because I fucking hate global warming!
• Bridging sucks. But I'm going to have to keep to my vow and endure, man. Just b/c I'm not you.
• I ♥ Social Studies when a new topic is involved, but I hate it almost all the time b/c it's probably just revision.
• I despise people who make a mountain out of a molehill, and those who cannot get over things, but most of all I hate being ignored.